Since writing my last entry I have been overwhelmed by the number of times I have seen evidence of my life getting better.

It isn't just the time of year, infact it usually gets worse. More that, for me I see events and people alot clearer. I can see people for who they are and how they act. Creating some distance has allowed me to see just how sick some people can be. I have come to realise that many events are not my fault, or at least not all my fault and that I dont have to take responsibilty for everything that has happened.

Life becoming clearer has allowed me to set boundaries and for once stick with with them. On christmas eve I was put in an awkward position with a person and was able to say, "no thank you". A simple phrase, but I felt that I was being polite, able to keep myself feeling safe.

Boundaries and seeing clearly, is this what makes life better?? For me I think so. These are the areas in my life that I need to work on. I was recently watching a TV show with a celebrity who had just lost a pregnancy. I sat feeling her pain and truely knowing how she felt. I could see my grief very clearly, but knew that this was just fine and that I have moved on.

Warmest Wishes

Judith P