What do we believe and why?

If I look back on my own journey, I can see clearly that I didnt believe in very much until recently.

I had very little reason to have any faith that there could be any one or any thing that could help me. I think I felt this because I hadnt had any evidence to show me anything any different. I have survived a great deal and have felt very alone at my most urgent times of need. I didnt even consider asking for help from a place higher than me.

Loosing pregnancies (and marriages)  can test even the most secure faith. I have been surely tested, while loosing 4 pregnancies and 2 marriages. I did have a tendancy to view these losses as all my fault. I am alos a person who uses silence as a form of serenity, this silence includes not asking for help.

I didnt tell many people that I was loosing pregnancies as the silence protected me from being hurt. If I did discuss it, then maybe it wasnt happening. For me, the problem is that I can only go so long while trying to keep myself together. Then I break down, which is what im afriad of in the first place. Today I do have a power greater than me, that I turn to. I dont have to be silent as I can share with that belief. I also dont have to share with too many people as I have that Higher Power.

I sincerely believe that my life would not be what it is today, if I had controlled all parts of it. My imagination and emotions limit me. If I try to leave my path to my Higher Power it is unimaginable what can happen!

Warmest Wishes

Judith D