For the past couple of weeks I have been trying in vain to practice the art of letting go. What with fluctuating hormones and the sudden cold of Calgary, its not been easy.

My problem is that in some ways I am very driven, I like to get things done. So, the art of letting things go, does not involve getting it done and moving on! It means relaxing and taking your time, feeling the feelings and learning from them. I work, I have a child , a dog and a house, so I don't have much time for letting go. Yet this concept would make more room in my life, so why is it so hard?

Well I also have a tiny issue with control. When I feel vulnerable, I automatically start to try and control my environment and what's happening around me. It has meant that I have been moody and stressed. This only adds to the feelings of being out of control and makes my life unmanageable. I had 3 days last week, where I didn't want to talk to any one, I felt controlled by another's game playing and knew I what I was doing, but couldn't do a dam thing about it.

Until day 4, I sat feeling exhausted, vulnerable and very alone and suddenly decided to turn to my Higher Power for help.

The conversation initially involved asking where on earth my Higher Power had been in the last few days. The answer I got was," I have been here all the time, watching you struggle and feeling your pain. I can't force you to let go of what hurts you, I just have to be here waiting". I felt a huge sense of comfort and relief.

I have written often about the idea of letting go of our issues, but when you try it, it works. As long as we continue to try and control everything around us, the more unmanageable life will become. For me my level of happiness and serenity is directly linked to my ability to try and let go.

Warmest Wishes

Judith P.